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Sunday

[shrug]
i have tears welling in my eyes, but i won't let myself cry.

because it really was my fault.

12:09 PM

Wednesday

creative writing has lost it's flair. it's boring and time consuming now. pshhh. oh yeah, and in the last ten minutes of science i got bored with my lava lamp and fucked it up. woo hoo i don't know why i did. i just wanted to see what'd happen, so i found out.

oh my god.

i am SO bored. so tired. so blahsay. overwhelming feeling of cabin fever i gotta get outta this class. i'm gonna go write a pass, so yeah.

i decided that i'm gonna switch out of fiber arts. i wanted to do it with mrs len, cause she could've made it fun. but making paper doesn't seem like my ace. i think i'm switching into woods. maybe. hmmmmmm....... everyone tell me what you have fourth quarter fourth block a days. maybe if i like you, i'll switch into it to hang with you. don't feel bad if i don't.

um, yeah. school week is half way over. yay for that. hopefully this weekend will be eventful and jam-packed, cause i been missin my home dawgs.

haha. i keep remembering that i totally fucked my lava lamp. it just sits on the bottom looking sad. i put in a lot of anti-freeze just for kicks, and now it doesn't do the whole lava deal. i think mr sitz is warming up to the idea that i understand science. woohoo.

holy shit, i have so much energy and nothing to do with it!!!!
i'm stuck at a computer typing, and my fingers are all jittery and i really really really really really really really really really really REALLY need to do something. wow. i'm never normally hyper, but right now i am. i'm on an energy high. merr.

11:33 AM

Tuesday

this is so unbelieveably lame. it looks really cool. and it smells really bad. but i can't for the life of me make it BUBBLE. that stupid wanna be lava lamp over there represents everything going on right now and that makes me so mad at it. despite the fact that it's an inanimate object. that's irrelevant. it seems like everything i try to accomplish lately goes to shit, just like that goddamn lava lamp. it looks really nice but it's a failure nonetheless. i can't achieve any of my goals and it makes me more upset than i can tell you. so i won't.

8:50 PM

the moon is out

the stars invite

i think i'll leave tonight

4:32 PM

Monday

yay for creative writing class, the only time i ever seem to blog! well, feeling more creative today. wrote a new page to my story, even though i haven't integrated it all yet. it's in three seperate places, with four different parts. so, pretty happy about us having a late start tomorrow. i think i may have a sleepover with some friends, so good stuff. i actually had a bad day with some good in it, so it's still pretty acceptable. talked to megan a little, barely saw adam, abby got sick, amanda is right next to me, and nik is realizing that he isn't a friend of mine.

good stuff, eh.

grawr. poor daniel just had a breakdown cause he realized he's gay.

11:29 AM

Sunday

aaa brighten my day.

less lame.

6:25 PM

this is lame.

i want to go home and lay in my bed and sleep, cause i feel sick.
and i look like hell.

wow. i'm gonna go take a bath. my hair is gross.

12:19 PM